I've been badly neglecting my writing website and blog for about a year now, I suppose because I didn't feel I'd done anything worth mentioning, but this year I felt motivated to have another go at NaNoWriMo.
Well, I just won NaNoWriMo, minutes ago, and I do feel proud! :D
I also feel a bit frustrated not to have finished the story, quite. I have four bullet points at the end of the document telling me the bits I still need to write. Argh! :O I really wish I hadn't written any of the pointless bits I'm going to edit out, but actually used all my 50,000 words to get to the end. I do need a break from this one now, so it's going to be a question of motivating myself to come back and finish the first draft. I can't do it just yet!
At this point, my feeling is that my novel is no worse than a first draft ought to be, and there is some hope for it. I'm very glad about that, because I've had the basic idea for years and years and years, but never been able to write it before. I tried for NaNoWriMo 2009, and that was the one year I attempted the challenge that I failed (in the sense that I didn't reach the word count, anyway). It was just turning into absolutely nothing. But now, I've at least told that story... mostly!
As I say, I really wish I'd finished it, but I will get to it - I think it needs to be no more than another 5,000 words - and then, well, I'll have a bunch of difficult and frustrating editing to do. Yay! :D
Meanwhile, I keep thinking about what I'd like to do with my attempts from 2013 and 2014 that I've hardly dared to look at because they're so messy. But now I've fallen back in love with the ideas. Too many ideas... :/
Thank you, of course, to all my friends over at DeviantArt who encouraged me. I might have done it without you, but I'm very glad I didn't have to. :)